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An unexpected yet unknown feeling surfaced me.
Sunday, June 27 ▲ 19:19
Fugg. I just realised my last update was done on tuesday, well i'm coming through with it. I've tried my best to think hard but the fire isn't flicking. I can't recall everything and anything which happened on wednesday and thursday. (Okay wait, my maid suddenly recalled.)However, just some events.
Wednesday
I went to watch The Karate Kid and that was when my life ended once againnnnnn. The other time i didn't have so much feelings because i dozed off halfway. This time i watched it, fully focused through the whole movie. And came out with a hell long face, i know i was dead.
I don't know why i suddenly came up with this feeling, the movie made me feel like i'm in beijing all within. And i suddenly think of all my friends i had in china, when i saw wang;zhenwei in that movie. I just don't know why, regretting that time for not learning chinese martial arts. I found wang;zhenwei very familiar, i was thinking that i may have met him in china before, a long time ago. In fact i have been thinking real hard these few days, i want to go to beijing.
I found him on twitter,(now still wanting to know about that unconfirmed anonymous via twit.) but the way everything he seems to be doing makes it just too suspicious. Hopefully he's not a poser just to dupe in all the fans.
I'm starting to think again, it seemed like an illness, an uncurable one. It just comes too suddenly, i think it more than i think of tomorrow's death. Showing my report book tommorow, but still doesn't know what the teacher would do. It just comes tomorrow, fml.
Thursday
I could only recall i cleared the house up and ended up getting a pour down. A little pissing over here today. After that got ready for the next day's excursion.
(Can't really recall the others.)
FridayLeft for starcruises, thinking it would be fun. But got irritated at the second day, phone got confiscated yesterday, and one of my friend got maligned as that bitch went to call up my friend for a bitch reason. Didn't had dinner and breakfast in this two days interval.[Anyway i'm making my peeps! and myself clear. I will have no this bitch to have any relationship in future even if i interact with her in any form some day. I swear to jesus, to myself as a buddhist and my grandpa who left us, that this bitch is not my mother any after whichever god's sake. And this applies to my dad very soon.]Today, came back from cruise at approximately 1pm. Rest and then was thinking about things again. This time there's alot, mainly about @china stuffs, followed by school stuffs, personal stuffs. Unexpected yet is still an unknown feeling surfacing me and i have no idea how to explain it. I'd rather not explain because there's not going to be any response out of myself either. I'll have to bear this all over for a period of time. My blog is to keep my peeps! and myself updated, but i guess i may have to end this for a period of time. It happens anytime once it strucks 5am tomorrow. I don't know, my phone is not with me and i just want it back. Pcb bitches using this way to blackmail me. I will leave for china, some day, alone, i will and i really will. If i start my life myself, again in this world. I'm frustrated. I'm settling for tomorrow and the future. I want to start everything once again, for myself."You wanna share your life reply button with meeeee?"